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Friday, 23 January 2009
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私が何でいつもお金を使う？ ほんどな理由は無いよ、自分で住んで、基本の生活費用必要だと思う。何時も、お金の問題が私と彼氏の中に存在する。二人の価値観は全然違う。私が困る、結婚が欲しいで銀行に入りのお金がほとんどない。
私がブランドが好きだから、ブランドのバッグを多くかっだ。此の興味は悪いと思っう下度、自分で止まる意識が弱いね。だから、時々自分が嫌いと思う。彼はいい人ですよ、何が私のせに彼がお金の問題を何時も考えだ。本道にごめいなさいね。自分でわかるよ、此の興味は君が嫌いで、何時も私に怒った。その時、私の心が痛いで、泣くに始めだ。
疲れだ！！眠いいたい、でも、眠くない。悲しい！！
Thursday, 15 January 2009
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I hate the weather in Vancouver...it makes me feel lost.
I want to skip my dinner so I went to bed right after I get off work. Apparently it does not work, I am awake in front of my computer but with no appetite.
I think the dperession is back and it's attacking me again. I start thinking of something, and my tears start to come down again. I don't find anything belongs to me, and I am not that important to them as well.
I once think that my rabbit belongs to me, but think about that.....he's more belongs to gerry's mom now. BB is only approaching aunty when she's around.
Gerry belongs to his basketball games, pocker games, hockey games, his family, Dian--coz they talk even more than the two of us talk.
Mom she belongs to Dad....she hardly calls me now and which make me lost??!
Dad he still doesn't want to talk to me....and I miss him lots.
Brother belongs to his gf...he doesn't even remember me now.
It really seems tiring when it's only you around. All I have is materialize items....sigh...I think I can go back to bed now.
Sunday, 11 January 2009
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It is a strange day for me. I couldn't sleep until 3ish this morning but I couldn't wake up until 2ish pm in the afternoon. I guess my body has to rest for all that stress from work last week.
I cried non-stop after I woke up today. I could not really think of any reasons that I need to cry but then my tears were kept on coming out. The things that I was thinking while I cried like a stupid brat were my mom, Connie and my bunny. I still did not understand my crying point, and even ask myself
what was wrong with me. Any how, tomorrow will be another new begining. Must work hard and achive my objectives!
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I couldn't sleep...feel weird....
Friday, 09 January 2009
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I am back to Xanga!!! Reading back from what I wrote was pretty funny. I also realized one thing from my blog. The contents are either about studying or dieting, sometimes involved Gerry in it. :3
When I looked back the time when I was super slim~~~ and thinking that Gerry still complained about that I was fat! I don't think this topic will stop untill the day that I have anorexia. (which is impossible because I love foods too much)
Dine out Vancouver is coming right up, how can I not enjoy the foods!!! I look forward to the events.
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